This week I’m excited because we are playing SXSW!
I got the email in the middle of a busy morning and screamed out loud for a second when I read it. I’ve wanted to play SXSW for so long. I applied through the website a few months ago and just hoped for the best. Then I filed it into the back of my mind. We got chosen to do an official showcase and I can’t wait to see what it’s going to be like. I’m savoring this feeling.
I have so many goals and hopes for the music I’m doing and one I’ve had since the beginning has been to play this festival. I’m really excited that this goal has manifested into reality. I’ve had this dream for a long time. I’ve never been to Austin and I think this will be the perfect reason to go. I can’t wait to find out which other bands are going to be there.
This week I’ve been listening to a podcast called Dolly Parton’s America. It’s so amazing. I have always liked Dolly Parton because my mom played her music a lot when I was a kid. I love ‘Coat of Many Colors,’ ‘The Grass is Blue,’ ‘Hard Candy Christmas,’ ‘Jolene,’ and ‘I Will Always Love You’. But this podcast opened up a whole new world to me. I know now how hard it is to be a successful musician. I am in awe of the things Dolly has done. I am in awe of the way she interacts with the world. She seems to have a deep sensitivity to other people. A deep sensitivity to the world. I think that, when you’re very sensitive, it’s easy to retreat. To protect yourself from the onslaught of feelings. To go inward and stay there. Dolly takes that sensitivity and creates. Prolifically. There’s an open flow from the inside to the outside. That’s the feeling I get. And I’m inspired by that.
I want to live without shame. I want to show forgiveness. I want to be sensitive and strong. I want to enter the world. I want to bring what I have to offer. I want to feel sure. I’m listening to Dolly Parton on repeat, thinking about the things I want to do. Thinking about the hopes and dreams I have. Thinking about where I am and what I want. I’m feeling happy to be in this moment. And I have a new goal – to meet Dolly Parton someday. To have a career even a fraction as varied and rich as hers. She feels like a goddess, somehow. A creature from another place. Right now, she is my guiding light. My rhinestone beacon.